- tell me about this locket
- .......my locket? what do you want to know about it ?
- whatever you want to tell me about it
- .... it is mine ....
- you have quite a strange taste ...what is it? that design?
- ... i didn't choose it ... it was a gift ...i don't know about the design .. i didn't ask ...i did ask ... he said the design is whatever i see... i depends on me ... and how i see it ...
- your friend must be happy to see you wearing it all the time
- ....well .... since we don't meet ... he doesn't know ....
-how long?
- ...... ten years ....
- .........
- ....yes ten years and i am still wearing the locket ....ten years and i still hope a coincidence would make our path cross... do you believe how naive is that ??? i mean if by chance we meet i might not even recognize him ...
- may be he would recognize you ...
- .....that's impossible ... he is blind ... he never saw my face ....actually that was why we met ... i used to go read for him ... what made me think we are friends ... you know what it is my mistake .... i assumed something that never existed ....
- why ? what happened ?
- .......nothing ... just nothing .....one day i went to the hospital and he was not there ... no body wanted to tell me anything about him ... after all i was not a relative. .. me coming to read to him was part of a community service ... besides ... if he wanted me to know ... he would have told me ...
- is this why you lost your faith in human beings?
- ......... oh no ........ i lost my faith in human beings looooooong ago ....ever since i was a child...whenever it came to people ... it ended up with disappointment .... i stopped believing in people way long before i knew him
-then why are you crying now? pride?
- .......no ....... i am crying because despite all the walls that i carefully built ... to protect myself ... i allowed someone to get in ..... so in .... and i ended up more hurt than ever ....because it was me who did that to myself .... i did that to myself when i let him in .......
- but you can never know what happened ... or why he left .. may be he tried to reach you .. may be
-oh please ... don't start ... these ideas consumed me more than you can ever imagine ... please ...enough ....i am telling you ... it was my mistake ... i had no place in his life ...i fit no where in his life........ for him i was just a passer by ... as simple as that ... it was my mistake to think we were friends .........
- and you still believe you are ... you still refer to him as your friend ...
- ......yeah ... that's my fantasy ... the lie i hold on to... to go on ....the fact that i believe it ... doesn't make it true ...beseides my time is up ... and i have to go ........
- sarah ......
- yes
- thank you for coming today .........
- i will see you next week dr .
- next week ....
- .......my locket? what do you want to know about it ?
- whatever you want to tell me about it
- .... it is mine ....
- you have quite a strange taste ...what is it? that design?
- ... i didn't choose it ... it was a gift ...i don't know about the design .. i didn't ask ...i did ask ... he said the design is whatever i see... i depends on me ... and how i see it ...
- your friend must be happy to see you wearing it all the time
- ....well .... since we don't meet ... he doesn't know ....
-how long?
- ...... ten years ....
- .........
- ....yes ten years and i am still wearing the locket ....ten years and i still hope a coincidence would make our path cross... do you believe how naive is that ??? i mean if by chance we meet i might not even recognize him ...
- may be he would recognize you ...
- .....that's impossible ... he is blind ... he never saw my face ....actually that was why we met ... i used to go read for him ... what made me think we are friends ... you know what it is my mistake .... i assumed something that never existed ....
- why ? what happened ?
- .......nothing ... just nothing .....one day i went to the hospital and he was not there ... no body wanted to tell me anything about him ... after all i was not a relative. .. me coming to read to him was part of a community service ... besides ... if he wanted me to know ... he would have told me ...
- is this why you lost your faith in human beings?
- ......... oh no ........ i lost my faith in human beings looooooong ago ....ever since i was a child...whenever it came to people ... it ended up with disappointment .... i stopped believing in people way long before i knew him
-then why are you crying now? pride?
- .......no ....... i am crying because despite all the walls that i carefully built ... to protect myself ... i allowed someone to get in ..... so in .... and i ended up more hurt than ever ....because it was me who did that to myself .... i did that to myself when i let him in .......
- but you can never know what happened ... or why he left .. may be he tried to reach you .. may be
-oh please ... don't start ... these ideas consumed me more than you can ever imagine ... please ...enough ....i am telling you ... it was my mistake ... i had no place in his life ...i fit no where in his life........ for him i was just a passer by ... as simple as that ... it was my mistake to think we were friends .........
- and you still believe you are ... you still refer to him as your friend ...
- ......yeah ... that's my fantasy ... the lie i hold on to... to go on ....the fact that i believe it ... doesn't make it true ...beseides my time is up ... and i have to go ........
- sarah ......
- yes
- thank you for coming today .........
- i will see you next week dr .
- next week ....
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