collapse

… I can’t collapse now…. I can’t let go ….still a lot of unfinished stuff that need to be finalized…three stress points… may be four…and then most of the anxiety shall go away…or may be not…may be I will find something else to worry about…but then if it was by choice, why can’t I choose not to worry…why can’t I take myself away from the edge of panic…I can deal with the hand tremors… I can manage the shivering voice…and the weak speech flow…I just need a few waking moments away from the shadows of fear …. written on the 9th of may 2013