For the first time i am grateful for my brain chemistry that's keeping me a little indifferent towards what is going on.
i have always had my issues with people, character judgment issues, trust issues ...
adding to that the huge gap between what i think and what peoples behavior truly mean, the conclusion was simply: being safe means being alone, and i had no problem with that...
yet ... i couldn't stick to this all the time... and i ended up telling myself :" you naive... you don't learn from your mistakes"
but how can it be a mistake? why is it a mistake?
what is so wrong in trying to connect with people, in trying to have a friend...
time is the only challenge and proof of a true friendship, and as i go through life i try to start and build something, hoping it would last.... i don't think that this is a mistake
it is just the disappointment... it hurts... and i can't help it
don't blame me for trying... because i will try again for the sake of the chance that something great might come along, even if it is not meant to last.... as soon as i recover
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