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it is the end of a long day, i can't work, and i can't sleep either, and probably i shouldn't write, or post anything, yet i will... one of the things that are really good for me, is to do what i want without thinking too much about it..

there is no absolute truth... i am repeating myself here, but i must never forget that...

sometimes we... i believe in something, and i see everything that happens a simple confirmation of whatever i believe in... as if there is one and only one way to read all these signs. and the further i go on my way, the harder it gets to move back and let go what i was perusing. I know why it is so hard to do so, it would be as if i admit that all was non sens, and all the passed time was wasted, and i was stupid enough to ignore all the possibilities and to believe in something that never existed.

and again i wonder... what difference would it make... there is nothing that can be done...it is useless to talk. after all our choices are very limited

but if things are that simple... why does it feel so bad right now??